The BIG 33

Tomorrow I will turn 33. Yep that's what I said - 33.

Most people say that I don't look 33. I sure don't feel 33. So why is 33 a scary number for me? This age is the first one that I actually do not want to turn. 30 was even good for me. 33 just sounds.... what's the word for it... not young? I really think that if I could skip this age I would be ok because 34 and 35 don't sound as bad as 33 to me. Is that weird?

Maybe it's the double number? lol I'm sure there are reasons though.

For one, I'm going to be 33 and NOT MARRIED. It is kinda scary to think that maybe, just maybe I might not be married... and I don't wanna be alone when I'm older. I do want to be married. I just stink at meeting good men!

For two, I live in a college town. 'nuff said

For three, I don't have kids - now I have debated on whether I really want to have children. I do well with fish and cats... I'm ok with puppies/dogs. And I know that cute babies turn into teens... yuk.

Most of my friends that are within a 5 year range of my age are married and have children or will soon. I'm not trying to keep up with the Joneses, but I want that. I want a family of my own. I want a husband - even though I've heard they are trouble! lol. I want the messiness and beautifulness of a family.

For four - my life still seems to be in transition. Not that it's a bad thing. I am always up for trying new things and moving to new places. I guess I just always figured that by this time in my life I would be settled.

Maybe that's what this "fear of 33" is all about. There's probably more. There's always more.

All I know is that in about 8 hours I will no longer be 32. lol anyone invented a time machine yet? :)

Dazey Thoughts

So I'm not really great at blogging. My brain works in circular patterns. At least it does when I'm conversing and writing things like this. BUT I'm going to try this. I've tried many things over the years.. Bebo, Xanga, Myspace, umm... and some others I don't remember. :) But here we go!!

First off... the name of my blog - Dazey Thoughts. Just a little explaination on how I came to the name Dazey. WELLLL, I like Gerber daisies. So the first time I logged in to play Bunco on MSN games (Bunco's not there anymore, by the way) I was trying to think of a name and I came up with Daisygirl. Sounded fun so I went with it. Well, Prilosec OTC sponsored the site and decided they didn't want to anymore so - POOF - there goes Bunco online. Well The World of Bunco decided to make a site and when I went to log in on that one, I couldn't use Daisygirl for some odd reason. So I played around with some random names and thought about how else I could spell daisy. I came up with Dazeygrl. I thought it was cute and kinda different so now I use that on most of my IM's and stuff. Now most people in Bunco just call me Daz. Kinda cool because it's only the second REAL nickname I've ever had. Kate, my cousin Julie's daughter who is 4, called me Bubble when she was a baby and it kinda stuck. So there ya go!

YAY I wrote a paragraph. Fun times! I hope I'll write more soon.